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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Back to Work

Today was the day I've been dreading. Today I went back to work. Or at least, I went back to the office where I used to have a job. I found out several days after Lily arrived that the larger company I work for decided to eliminate my department. So I returned today to begin to clear out my office and look for a new job. I knew this day would be hard, but I didn't know it would be this hard. Halfway through the day, after braving the snowy weather in 3" heels and a suit, and two interviews later, I felt ready for a breakdown. Neither interview felt like it went well. And the back-to-back meetings meant I was seperated for too many hours from my pump - I felt certain that at any moment I was going to spray unsuspecting passersby with my uncomfortably overabundant milk. And I missed my Lily so terribly. I was miserable.

And now, back home for several hours, my girl sleeping in the next room, I'm still miserable. I don't want to go back to another day of this tomorrow. It all just feels so wrong. It's making me think seriously about taking that six-month severance package after all...

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posted by Amy at 5:51 PM

3 Comments:

Anonymous Anonymous said...

Amy-

((hugs))

Give me a call or drop me a note if you want to chat, ok?

Beth

9:25 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I remember telling Tom, "It goes against every fiber of my being to walk out the door on a daily basis and leave Grace to go to work." I still feel that way. Circumstance dictates that I go against my instinct. Perhaps there is some flexibility for you and Doug that will mean you won't have to do the same. Be creative! From what I have read, this situation has led to some multi-million dollar ideas for some moms who were searching for an alternative. I say take the package and buy yourself some time to make a reasoned decision. You're likely still on a bit of a roller coaster emotionally, so it is not the best place from which to make an important decision.

4:46 PM  
Blogger Kim said...

It does get better...It was hard at first to leave Maddie at "school" but she loves it and loves being with and playing with the other kids. I also needed to have adult interaction as well. In the end everyone finds the right balance for themselves. You will too =)

9:07 PM  

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